A journal of sorts

and the world gets stuck on the tip of my tounge....

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 12:56:13 GMT

why can't I get it out of my head...?

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Sun, 21 Jun 2009 21:42:03 GMT

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pseudo hipsters and scene kids

Thu, 21 May 2009 09:28:01 GMT

sandy is so full of phoney people! man so annoying...
I don't know what else I was going to write..
I HEART HIROSHIMA!!! amazing australian band
if I was going to have a small 14 year old girl crush on anyone in a band it would be Susie Patten from I Heart Hiroshima.
she is a multitalented drummer/ singer and packed full of don't give a shit about what other people think attitude.
so awesome!

:D that is all

punk rock jock, punk rock jock, I got socked by the punk rock jock

Sun, 10 May 2009 02:08:21 GMT

so I figure if I keep going it hopefully will just all work out.
im not proactive enough to change things

I havn't updated this in 3 weeks!

Sun, 19 Apr 2009 02:33:18 GMT

hmm so tumblr has been getting a favouring over LJ but ahwell.

I started something I couldn't finish. but oh how I need it to stop.

just.....

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 12:15:51 GMT

Wow, I have a feeling everything will work itself out but at the same time I have this feeling that everything is going to come crashing down on me.
YAY INDECISIVE. but yes, that is what I have to say at this moment in time.
man all my posts are the same whiney things each time I decide to post. next post will be something different.

I promise.

you'll be sorry...

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 08:35:16 GMT

MAN IM SO EXCITED FOR SATURDAY YAYAYAAYAY
everyone is so wonderful for taking time to see us.
yayaayayay

AHH SO HAPPY IM GOING TO BURST

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 05:56:06 GMT

:D
I don't even know why ahahah this is so good!
:D ahahah everything is amazing

MOST EPIC HOMEWORK SESSION!!

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 05:47:54 GMT

ok I have to finish this terms worth of english work tonight.....
FAIL!
but on the bright side I love this song!
fired - ben folds five
and its making me feel really happy, like im really really happy at the moment.
:D win! im stuffed for philosophy though.... and most probably english aswell
ahhhh well

happy? maybe

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 21:32:18 GMT

Im feeling alright which is good. I think band practice was canceld so I have no idea what im going to do today.

everything in its right place?

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 20:25:56 GMT

Do you get scared when you thing about things?

If nothing changes, if it all stays the same?

don't touch the rabbit

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 10:11:47 GMT

main ridge town hall gig.
huzah!

same as Kate's post

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 11:22:06 GMT

messy, depressed, introverted, feels invisible, does not make friends easily, nihilistic, reveals little about self, fragile, dark, bizarre, feels undesirable, dislikes leadership, reclusive, weird, irritable, frequently second guesses self, unassertive, unsympathetic, low self control, observer, worrying, phobic, suspicious, unproductive, avoidant, negative, bad at saving money, emotionally sensitive, does not like to stand out, dislikes large parties, submissive, daydreamer

Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Orderliness results were very low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
Extraversion results were moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

getting my hair rebrowned

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 02:00:59 GMT

no more pink hair. so in about an hour or so I will be brown again. superb!
I will put a picture up or something maybe....
but then again I don't know where the camera is.

havn't LJ posted in like a week....

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 21:09:28 GMT

Well last night turned out well, first time we have played infront of people we don't know and they enjoyed it :) Thanks to our friends who came all that way and watched! that was awesome.
My finger got sliced open about 2 songs in and there was blood everywhere, its all over my guitar so I will take a picture at somepoint, someday...I went to bed at like 1ish and once again Jake gets up at 7ish. I will die one day from sleep deprivation.

Today if I can get onto AJ or Madie I will go to the markets but if not I don't know!! Then monday maybe moomba? I still need to see whos going and such before I decide.

anywho I will end this post right about now!

the meat in your mouth as you savour the flavor of murder

Thu, 26 Feb 2009 05:11:59 GMT

haha good old sadistic, cynical smiths' lyrics..
still havn't really told my parents im going to soundwaves.... not the smartest of all moves, but I will tonight.
hopefully it will all be "YAY JAKE WE WOULD LOVE YOU TO GO".
fingers crossed

you look so tired

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 03:37:52 GMT

why is everything so complicated.
I need to get out and do something.

tumblr blog yesum

Wed, 18 Feb 2009 11:47:36 GMT

itsjakeface.tumblr.com

we were born to lose

Wed, 18 Feb 2009 07:36:00 GMT

I think I have created myself an emotional blackhole and what it is doing is sucking in everything and spitting it out as a form of negative or paranoia.
Maybe im being greedy in wanting things that I don't have...
Maybe I should be grateful, but in full truth I don't think to kindly of myself...
any critisicm I get beats down on me hard like getting all the oxygen hit out of you by a wave then not being able to breathe because your trapped in its watery tomb.
apart from that I actually feel quite good after all thats happened, I think I can make it how I want, how I see things, how I plan things to be in the future for me...
who I am...
But I just have to forget trying to be who im not because that is just me trying to fit in, trying to show people that Im not weird or a homo or a freak like they said I was...
this all probably started in primary school, when I got bullied alot and in the first few years I didn't have proper friends.. only ones who used me.
that might explain why Im the dropkick dormat I am today.
I did become friends with people who were amazing and didn't give a shit if it wasn't 'cool' to do what we were doing.
although this was primary school it sort of helped me realise I didn't have to be like everyone else. I could do my own thing.
hmm maybe I should stop telling my life story in a LJ post. although I probably would realise alot more if I wrote it all out haha.
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I wrote a new song yesterday, it is pretty angry but I needed to release my anger.
it doesn't go long .. grungey/punk sorta sound.
its not intended to appeal.
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how are you earth?
I love how you put up with our shit, im sorry.
although its probably to late, I feel your pain...
I hope you don't kill yourself, we would miss you if you did.
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i know

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 09:27:04 GMT

I know, you love the song but not the singer
I know, you've got me wrapped around your finger
I know, you want the sin without the sinner
I know
I know

I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster
I know, the last in line is always called a bastard
I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster
I know
I know

I know, you cut me loose in contradiction
I know, I'm all wrapped up in sweet attrition
I know, it's asking for your benediction
I know
I know

(I don't know at all anymore)
I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster
I know, the last in line is always called a bastard
I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster
I know
I know

I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster
I know, the last in line is always called a bastard
I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster
I know
I know.

gahhh!

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 07:48:11 GMT

I want to hide away from all of them.
but then again im still rather happy...
maybe its because of all the wonderful things happening in the upcoming weeks

mother earth declared 'spendthrift'

Sun, 15 Feb 2009 00:02:24 GMT

How can you see?
when you cover your eyes
how do you breathe?
void of personality
speaks of tv sets
perfection in shades of blue and green

or so he said, so she said...
misanthropy gets the best of me

get away from me!
get away from me!
your not allowed in my headspace
leave this radio controlled walk all over brain of ours
alone
alone....

how do you hear?
when your talking all the time
about how truly great you are
captain. perfect
your perfectly disgusting to me
I love the faults and the flaws
I fell in love with your
Imperfections!

or so he said, so she said...
misanthropy gets the best of me

get away from me!
get away from me!
your not allowed in my headspace
leave this radio controlled walk all over brain of ours
alone
alone....

trapped in your math
and your inhabitions
I cant escape your
bear like grip
this time

misanthropy gets the best of me
sometimes...
sometimes...

elliot smith

Sat, 14 Feb 2009 04:25:33 GMT

oh how depressingly great you are, although you are fuelling my bad mood some happiness is shining through for your amazing excellence.

im not sure why I walked off today...
I don't think I have the feeling anymore

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9pyBB7y8fDU

new house

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 06:06:52 GMT

I finally got my internet back so I can get back to spending hours apon hours hiding from my problems on the internet

DOUBLE DOUBLE POST

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 11:57:53 GMT

my mood changed, well my outlook on my mood changed. I realised how many mopey sad sop story posts I have posted and I thought to myself "I CAN BE HAPPY, JAKE YOU ARE A POSITIVE PERSON." hmm well thats what I said, I stil feel sick but I am working my mood into a happy one.

also
I hope that you realise how great you are, even though you may have your down days.
Be Happy, your amazing.